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Nebularium + The Restless Memoirs EP

  • Year Released: 2001 (Nebularium), 2009 (The Restless Memoirs EP)

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Track Listing

  1. Into D.M.

    3:04

    Steep rocks in front of me
    A murmur by the wind and the sea
    Eyelids closed, subconscious set

    I open my eyes and take the step
    The breeze washes my sins
    And now, the night begins

    Writer(s): Ettore Rigotti

  2. Blue Lake

    7:02

    Cold attacks me as the liquid is in touch
    Muffled sounds from somewhere
    Like unborn through the amniotic fluid
    Getting upset to reach my air
    In this condition I try to understand
    What has happened after that step

    I was hearing my name
    Rebounding through the walls, expanding in the veins
    It rushes with me, with my thoughts
    Descends into the well
    Reaching my own blue lake

    I see the unreal pipes of feelings
    They look at me and flow
    To take a wish into below

    I was hearing my name
    Rebounding through the walls
    Expanding in the veins
    It rushes with me with my thoughts
    Descends into the well
    Reaching my own blue lake

    Are you a whispering soul or a thoughtless neurone?
    Tell me your name and I′ll bring you my Lord
    Into the halls of your vice
    You’ve been too blind ′til now
    Open your eyes, take off your shroud

    Yes, I feel open-minded
    I outline coloured thoughts
    Your spirit is somewhere here
    In your pulsing deep blue lake

    The upper light seems to come from inside
    Liquid tension pulls me into the air
    Like unborn through the amniotic fluid
    I’d remain in its womb
    The light calls me to his reign
    I’m born again

    How hard is this night to see
    My life breaking to free
    A new light from tomorrow
    Beneath the past, a sun is shining pale
    With my hands, I raise it into the air

    Beneath the past, a sun is shining pale
    With my hands, I raise it into the air

    Found the dust in my eyes, submerge in a water now warm
    Merged into the first reflection close upon me
    This night lulled by waves, light breath of a liquid called life
    Quenching my thirst, I still dream

    Writer(s): Ettore Rigotti

  3. Mechanichell

    5:03

    Growling in this side
    It couldn′t be so real
    To believe that in our small and stacked lives
    Our left time is running still
    Mechanichell
    For us is set beyond the black white line
    Infernal grief in heaven
    Not a switch
    Caught aside a narrow cold trip

    I feel my life became an old set
    Where I can see the gears dance
    I know my life became an old set
    Wheels dance and we take their step

    Months are days in this set
    We’ll never see again, mother earth
    We are just cogwheels, no hero
    The part that grinds reverse
    In course of time, we are the rust
    Beyond the black white line
    Infernal grief in heaven
    Don′t live twice

    Go

    The resurrection comes
    Destroy the life for your time
    The resurrection comes
    Destroy the life for your time
    Your time

    Months are days in this set
    We’ll never see again, mother earth
    We are just cogwheels, no hero
    The part that grinds reverse
    Mechanichell
    Beyond the black white line
    Infernal grief in heaven
    Not a switch
    Caught aside a narrow cold trip

    I feel my life became an old set
    Where I can see the gears dance
    I know my life became an old set
    Wheels dance and we take their step
    I know my life became an old set
    Wheels dance and we take their step

    Writer(s): Ettore Rigotti

  4. Guilty Claims

    7:15

    And I′m still here in front of this skyline
    Waiting for a change and
    Since half a century I’m here

    Two long years in heaven
    To agree with this hell
    Can a past mistake cancel

    Earth divided, civil war
    Red flashlights of gore
    Exiled losers, worse than dying
    Bring them to the dark side of the sky

    Closed out of light
    Beyond the shadows
    A black-white line
    Divides the booty of war

    Lonely the voice of awareness
    Softly screams his guilty claims
    He was the reason, now he′s the pain

    Growing in this side
    It could be so real to believe
    That our native ground
    Is so void

    Months are days in this set
    Never seen again mother earth
    A patient old man, not warrior only
    While young men ask their hero
    To tell them again that story

    Closed out of light
    Beyond the shadows
    A black-white line
    Divides the booty of war

    Lonely the voice of awareness
    Softly screams his guilty claims
    He was the reason, now he’s the pain
    Lonely the voice of awareness
    Softly screams his guilty claims
    He was the reason, now he’s the pain

    Present life in a skyline
    I see it is a black-white line
    I have grown in heaven

    I′ll soon leave the world
    Last time, last fly
    But dying here will free my hopes
    outro

    My sons will pass the black-white line

    Writer(s): Ettore Rigotti

  5. Burning Cells

    4:38

    Like flesh in a slaughterhouse
    I know we are pleasant cowshed
    Upset like a pig in his gore

    Swim fast and fuck your needs
    You′re not alone now
    Let it go

    Wanna close your eyes
    Tired of this nauseating cream
    But strobos flash your skin
    And you know
    You’re done, trippin′ down

    You can transgress now
    Rebel against what?
    No choice, one way
    To get rid of the shit stored

    Need some Vaseline?
    To keep good all she promises
    Can’t be slave to the image
    Display your illness
    You became slave, stupid fucker

    How long will it last?
    All a story to live
    One thousand of cells to hive, to burn
    From now, you can begin

    Light dissolving in my saliva
    Under the tongue fire, come on

    How long will it last?
    All a story to live
    One thousand of cells to hive, to burn
    From now, you can begin

    Claustrophobia
    Your brain is suffering inside
    Exploding
    He found his grave in your mind

    Try to get up fucker
    You’re sitting or you′re already standing
    Tell me, what′s your aftershave?
    You are a floweret by this side
    To whom someone broke the stalk

    Wanna close your eyes
    Tired of this nauseating cream
    But strobos flash your skin
    And you know

    Need some Vaseline?
    To keep good all she promises
    Can’t be slave to the image
    Display your illness
    You became slave, stupid fucker

    Writer(s): Ettore Rigotti

  6. Demiurgo

    7:07

    In the lost memories of a day not day
    Across a time that had still to begin it′s turn
    A god got tired of the surrounding vacuum
    And molded a game to catch eternity

    Will we ever know our future course?
    What has become behind the scenes
    Is there a shred of law
    That gives the freedom to the acts
    I am the way for myself
    The real way

    Only know the way for myself

    Creature, similar but shred

    I’ll bring you life and be quiet
    I′m watching your behavior
    And remember you are my bloom
    I foresee sinner
    I foresee betrayer
    Rebel you will be
    And I’m right here to resolve your sin
    Remember, you never die

    I must believe to rise
    In a world divided from the bytes
    I must live just for myself
    And waiting for the reaction

    I must believe to rise
    In a world divided from the bytes
    I must live just for myself
    And waiting for the reaction

    Now bring back your soul to me
    You wasted your chance to live
    And don’t worry for me
    I′ll find a better pastime

    Your life has been so sweet
    Of knowledge you were so ravenous
    Fly now upon the sky and die, and die

    I could not save him from his worth
    His merit has been his fault
    I could not save him from his worth
    His merit has been his fault

    And I feel so alone
    And I feel so alone

    Writer(s): Ettore Rigotti

  7. Nebularium

    7:07

    Our life is sometimes
    A story set in a game level
    We never leave until the will dies
    Our life is something
    If our credits were forever
    Forever

    And now the time has come
    I feel so weak
    I was weared out by the wander
    And I can′t believe
    Answer’s here
    In this silent shadow

    Our life is sometimes
    A story set in a game level
    We never leave until the will dies
    Our life is something
    If our credits were forever
    Forever

    All′s silent in deepest freeze
    Flowing back I see
    The steps of my history
    And their immobility

    People flowing, looking on
    And never turn back
    Deepest dreaming hypnotized
    Our steps give rules to time

    Alone in a crowd, likes of me
    Shadows fight against shadows of time
    Against the shadows of time
    Alone in a room, the end I can’t see
    I cry, just leave me alone
    Just leave me alone

    It follows near behind
    Alone against the shadows of time

    It follows near behind
    Alone against the shadows of time

    I hear his breath of centuries
    Millennium-old heart pulse
    Be my nebularium
    Save my life from its hold

    I hear his breath of centuries
    Millennium-old heart pulse
    Be my nebularium
    Save my life from its hold

    I slowly turn my look
    There’s a mirror behind
    An old man in the reflection
    The shadow is me

    Writer(s): Ettore Rigotti

  8. Awakening

    2:51

    [Instrumental]

  9. Across the Burning Surface

    4:12

    I am descending
    Towards the burning me
    He lies awake in slumber
    Cradled by lustful dreams

    I fuel to feed my fire
    Blood shots of gasoline
    Fulfill my self-destruction
    ′Til flames burn within

    ‘Cause I won′t wait another day
    I don’t need your foul salvation
    All I want is to burn away

    And I won’t save me from myself
    I don′t see a better solution
    All I want is to feed my pain

    I don′t need to be immortal
    I just want to burn away
    I can’t see a better solution
    All I need is to feed my pain, ow!

    Do you lack the words to say?
    You will miss them anyway
    Face first right in the dirt
    Force-fed by broken hopes

    Another time, a better ending
    Your life sucks, stop pretending
    Tomorrow′s just a step away
    Face first right in the grave, right in the grave, ow!

    I won’t wait another day
    I don′t need your foul salvation
    All I want is to burn away
    Won’t save me from myself

    I don′t see a better solution
    All I want is to feed my pain
    I don’t need to be immortal
    I just want to burn away

    I’m sinking further in my guilt
    Fueled by the wave of sin
    My flame is burning so dim

    Still sinking downward
    Inside a broken shell
    Through streams of burning magma
    Across this living hell

    I won′t wait another day
    I don′t need your foul salvation
    All I want is to burn away
    Won’t save me from myself

    I don′t see a better solution
    All I want is to feed my pain
    I don’t need to be immortal
    I just want to burn away

    Writer(s): Ettore Rigotti

  10. Flare

    3:08

    Yeah

    A single spark of ignition
    Yeah, this is all you will get from me
    I guess it must be frustrating
    To watch me stand where you′ll never be

    A casket built by your own hands
    And I know damn well who’s sleeping in
    Ain′t gonna show no compassion
    A light for all to see as motherfuckers burn

    Flare, on the edge of hypocrisy
    I can still see the truth
    Behind your mask of sanity
    There’s still the same old pigface

    Flare, I don’t need your apologies
    So just stay where you are
    Despite the damage you tried to do
    I still ain′t fucking impressed

    You know how I feel
    So just stand aside
    There won′t be no second chance
    Before I strike

    And all the words I’ve said
    You better read them twice
    For I won′t wait another day
    To get rid of you

    ‘Cause I′ve never lost my way in all this time
    I’m sorry
    Too simple to ask forgiveness
    It′s all in vain

    ‘Cause I’ve never lost my way in all this time
    I′m sorry
    Too simple to ask forgiveness
    It′s all in vain

    There ain’t no tomorrow
    Not even life
    For as much as I care about you
    You could be dead for sure

    Alone you stand in your silence
    Witness the fall of your fragile world
    A face beyond recognition
    Shall bear the scars as my fate unfolds

    No, you ain′t worth my forgiveness
    For all I want is to watch you burn
    Who gives a damn about morals
    Crown myself a king as motherfuckers crawl

    Flare, on the edge of hypocrisy
    I can still see the truth
    Behind your mask of sanity
    There’s still the same old pigface

    Flare, I don′t need your apologies
    So just stay where you are
    Despite the damage you tried to do
    I still ain’t fucking impressed

    Writer(s): Ettore Rigotti

  11. Kneeling on Broken Glass

    3:40

    Lick the wounds that still bleed
    Need a reason to surrender? The answer′s here
    Your whole life is a failure
    But I have the solution, get rid of yourself

    And still I crawl like a rabid beast beneath your skin
    A spiral dance, pitch-black romance, you’re welcome in

    Take a look into my eyes
    All I need is an excuse to dispose of your life
    Set myself beyond morals
    Decadence is an infection, surrender to guilt

    Slash my soul
    To the core
    Rip the skin
    And feed upon my heart

    Skin after skin still you crave to come back for more
    This bitter lesson always goes unlearned
    Need a reason to remember?
    Close all the doors and ride on my pulse to be sure I′ll stay with you for a while
    Oblivion’s black as a matter of fact you’re a slave to my conception of life

    Kiss the wounds of another day
    In a meaningless addiction you′re only a slave
    Strip the mask of sanity
    Pay the price and collapse ′cause nothing’s free

    Time to witness all your fuckin′ lies
    And to be the slave of your own denial

    Like an infection I can’t control the seed of hate has grown too strong
    A raven′s heart bleeding just for me inside my shell a monster breathes

    Writer(s): Ettore Rigotti

  12. Spiral Dancer

    3:48

    Lick the wounds that still bleed
    Need a reason to surrender? The answer′s here
    Your whole life is a failure
    But I have the solution, get rid of yourself

    And still I crawl like a rabid beast beneath your skin
    A spiral dance, pitch-black romance, you’re welcome in

    Take a look into my eyes
    All I need is an excuse to dispose of your life
    Set myself beyond morals
    Decadence is an infection, surrender to guilt

    Slash my soul
    To the core
    Rip the skin
    And feed upon my heart

    Slash my soul
    To the core
    Rip the skin
    And feed upon my heart

    Skin after skin still you crave to come back for more
    This bitter lesson always goes unlearned
    Need a reason to remember?
    Close all the doors and ride on my pulse to be sure I′ll stay with you for a while
    Oblivion’s black as a matter of fact you’re a slave to my conception of life

    Kiss the wounds of another day
    In a meaningless addiction you′re only a slave
    Strip the mask of sanity
    Pay the price and collapse ′cause nothing’s free

    Slash my soul
    To the core
    Rip the skin
    And feed upon my heart

    Slash my soul
    To the core
    Rip the skin
    And feed upon my heart

    Time to witness all your fuckin′ lies
    And to be the slave of your own denial

    Like an infection I can’t control the seed of hate has grown too strong
    A raven′s heart bleeding just for me inside my shell a monster breathes

    Slash my soul
    To the core
    Rip the skin
    And feed upon my heart

    Slash my soul
    To the core
    Rip the skin
    And feed upon my heart

    Writer(s): Ettore Rigotti

  13. Chester

    3:57

    [No official lyrics ever released]

  14. Ghost Song

    3:16

    As the sorrow is an open invitation
    And my story is done, and the character is gone
    As the moonlight is nothing but a memory
    And my story is done, and the character is gone

    As the sorrow is an open invitation
    And my story is done, and the character is gone
    And they′re crying in my soul

    Sense your freedom
    Together you pretend
    Sense your freedom
    You’re learning for yourself

    Sense your freedom, forevermore
    Could that be my brother?
    Could that be my sister?
    Could that be my brother?
    Could that be my sister?

    Sense your freedom
    Together you pretend
    Sense your freedom
    You′re learning for yourself

    Sense your freedom, forevermore
    Could that be my brother?
    Could that be my sister?
    Together forevermore

    Writer(s): Ettore Rigotti

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